ML Vlogger Makes Millions for His Stupid Boils

My kid recently marveled about a vlogger who makes millions from his game videos. Now he offers free out-of-town training or booth camps at his posh place to young people who want to be trained well in Mobile Legends (ML). On top of that, he gives them P30,000 allowance each. Photo by Fredrick Tendong on Unsplash. 

Wow! And the guy loves to curse and say bad words online. Talking boil on the butt.

I have somewhat the same dream (I don't mean the cursing and bad words online), but its a totally different thing. I want to offer free, out-of-town evangelistic camps to young people to introduce them to Jesus and his Gospel. I want it to be a 5-day thing with all expense paid--probably at the Rizal Recreation Center in Laguna, among the best campsites. The same way with discipleship.

But I want it all to have NO strings attached. We won't require them to attend our church or bible studies or get their names and contact numbers for follow up. I hate those things. I just want them to know Jesus personally. I want it exactly like how Jesus did it. He didn't do any of the above--usual "ministry" stuff today. He gave freely and left the decision to follow him to the people.

I will need lots of money for this, perhaps the kind that this vlogger makes per month. Umm, well, not that much really--probably I'd need just a small fraction of what he makes. About P50K a month or so would do, if God allows my vlogs to make that much a month.

I don't want money from donations, solicitations or gifts from friends or anybody else. I want the Lord to favor me with earnings from my blogs, ebooks and vlog. This way, I owe no one anything. My accountability and loyalty is to God alone. No one can pressure or influence me.

I've been praying for this for years, yet God does nothing. But this guy plays ML and just like that he makes millions that enable him to "train" young people in ML. I mean, what's ML compared to sharing the Gospel and discipling believers to Christ? ML and others like it is just stupid boil on the butt to spend much money and time on.

How Can You Not Complain?

Picture by Nik Shuliahin, Unsplash.

Imagine---your face is peppered with acnes, you have allergies, you have chronic heart palpitations, you're jobless, you have GERD, your old badly dilapidated house is infested with termites and other pests, your bathroom floor drain is clogged, your PC is old and begging for retirement and your internet connection is super slow. Besides all that, you have boil on the butt.

What more can you ask for?

How can you not complain with that? That's besides being looked down by most people, belittled because you're poor, disrespected and shamed in public, treated like stray dog and given no rights. Yup, that's how my life has been. And yet, I go on being tolerant, patient and quiet about it all--except in my time alone with God and when blogging here. I bring these things to God and ask him why.

Some preach against complaining. The bible does say not to do anything with complaining [Philippians 2:14-16] but Godly men did complain. Just read the life of Moses, Job and Jeremiah, for starters, and how about Jesus when he cried in public, "Why hast thou forsaken me?" I never cry in public about my boil in the butt, but of course being nailed to the cross for no fault of yours is completely different. Complaining with a rebellious spirit is a definite no-no, but complaining to let grief out and seek refuge in God is not.

I read lots of news about terrorists and mad killers on the loose perpetrating evil. Their plans succeed. Well, they died later, but they managed to have a lot of their plans carried out smoothly. Why does  God let that happen? And here you are, praying for ministry breakthroughs with signs and wonders and miracles and you get so little break.

Why doesn't heart palpitations just given to terrorists and heinous criminals to stop them from doing what they do? Boil on the butt, these crimes are! I heard some say, why not just let the Abu Sayyaf and communist rebels get all the Covid 19 infection? Sounds good to me, but I'm not really after the punishment of the wicked. I'm after the reward of those who seek God, not just in the hereafter but right NOW. Like, no more boil on the butt, to start with.

I've been asking God for finances to support my ministry (I plan a lot of evangelistic outdoor and out-of-town camps offered for free to young people so they'd hear the Gospel while "quarantined" (or incubated) somewhere in the mountains---not force any of them to receive Jesus but allow the Holy Spirit to convict them. That sort of thing). Yet, I've been getting no answer for decades. But some guy plans on doing something stupid and harmful and he's given everything he needs to do it. No sweat. I can't understand why.

How can I not complain?

Pain in the Neck

Picture by Tsvetoslav Hristov, Unsplash.

Last night I had this pestering, sharp pain in my lower throat whenever I inhaled or drank water. It started in the morning after I did some flexing with my bending bar and drank cold infused water. The pain started and went on bothering me up to bed time. And it was a piss-off.

Excruciating pain that is somewhat captured by that picture I used above. It's an awesome picture of some underground crevice--quite beautiful, in fact--but eerily I imagine something like that when I inhale or swallow. Like a throat with a narrowed passage. And it's the last thing I need.

I mean, I have a silly acne on my nose, tummy bloating, heart palpitations when I move the wrong way, some kind of echo in my ear, skin allergies, this stupid boil near my anus and now this pain in the neck (literal). All these I feel I don't deserve because I've been so careful with my healthy lifestyle.

Like boil on the butt.

Why is it that people with vices don't have them? I never wish that they'd suffer the same things. I keep telling God that if they enjoy good health despite their wasteful lifestyles, why can't I have better health than they have? I shouldn't be having any of this.

But what can you do? You don't fully understand any of them but you quietly suffer them anyway. They help you develop patience and humility--perhaps--but why doesn't God give them to the arrogant people that I know? There are a lot of them around. They need lots of lessons on humility.

But then who am I to tell God what he should do? I'm just a nothing--like a boil on the butt. He is God and he will do what pleases him. All creations can do is watch him do it. But by faith, we have a hope that he does them kindly and for a real good reason. That's what makes me holding on to him despite my life and stupid boils and untiringly meditating his Word.

Thank GOD it has become mildly painful today and a bit manageable. I can breathe more deeply without problems and swallow good. Thank you GOD! I love you!

Why Can't I Be Allowed those Abs?

Pic by Damir Spanic

What do you do with a protruding belly after you've done everything to make it shrink? It's amazing--I mean, you do everything in your power to contain the size increase of you tummy--even pray for it--but it just stays there bulging uglily.

Even more confusing is how your other body parts sag, especially your chest and shoulders, as you diet and workout. But your tummy stays intact. Funny how things are reversed. Shouldn't muscles bulk and form well when you exercise them? But it's not the case with mine. They sag. And my belly? It bulks.

Life perhaps is designed like that--well, at least sometimes. The opposite of what you want and work hard for happens. It's probably to make you see that you are not in control. But I see that perfectly well. In fact, I've been seeing that since decades ago. I've learned my lessons well (you'd see it if you keep checking my new blog articles here). And yet, I'm given the same old lessons.

Like how they say Covid 19 is a reminder to man that he is NOT in control. God is. This, I understand, because man in general keeps forgetting. I'm not just a man like that. I am a deep learner. I see things and remember them. So, why do I need to get the same reminder-lessons? Because sometimes, you get fed up with them, too. They're like boil on the butt.

Probably, that's why I still keep getting them. Unless you get the right antibiotic, they'd keep popping up, boil experts say.

So, what meds should I take? Any suggestions?